I Am A Mom Though and Though

Today is my oldest's 2nd birthday.

He doesn't really care which doesn't bother me at all but this day has flipped my mind upside down. I keep thinking about who I am and who I was two years ago. I love who I am but I have completely changed during the last two years.

Being a Mom is the greatest thing in my life. I am a Mom! When does this become part of my reality? I still feel like I am going to wake up and all of these little people have just been the best dream of my life.

Don't get me wrong. Everyday isn't a perfect dream come true but after the stinky diapers, dishes everywhere, endless mountains of laundry there are magic moments. I love the kisses, slobbery half open kisses, reading stacks and stacks of books, middle of the night snuggles. Bee and Sweets are so kind and thoughtful. They make me want to be a better person everyday of my life.

What did I even do with my life before them? I remember being busy, happy and fulfilled but honestly what did I actually do. Has it actually been two years since I went to work? Yes, yes it has. I loved my job. Some days I miss it but I wouldn't trade it for moments of being Mum to my angels. What did I think about? My thoughts are constantly overtaken by what does bee need? What does bee need to learn? How can I teach him to use the toilet? How can I keep Sweets safe from Bee's constant snuggles? What activities are we going to do tomorrow? So much bouncing around in there.

I have been terrible at keeping up with this blog recently. Two babies leaves my spare time to napping or dishes but normally napping. I won't always be able to sleep when my babies sleep so I have been taking advantage of it. In the future I am planning on smaller posts sharing the moments that I enjoy. Lets hope that it works out. I want to have my experiences recorded so that I can turn to them throughout the years.

Two years old!! I still cant believe it. I am completely overwhelmed with love. My brother asked me the other day how I keep from exploding and honestly I have no idea. Is this what being a mom is really like? I hope that the years to come are as fabulous.